I
I am this. I am that, I am neither this nor that.
The dewdrop and the petal, the mist of the waterfall am I.
Rooted in mother mud, raised up by father sky am I.
I, the demiurge, mover of mountains and cleaver of canyons,
I the custodian of archetypes, the disruptor, I the bezel,
I the Being, the undifferentiated Breath, I the articulate,
the Letters and the Names, This and That am I.
I the surface, I the deep, I the manifest, I the hidden,
I the cyclone, I the tempest, the storm's eye am I.
I am flesh and I am bone. The heart, the ventricles, the arteries,
limbs, eyes and tongue move, see and speak through I.
The East the West the North the South, the point, the pole,
the plane, the fount of Forms, the Self-Disclosed Supreme Logos,
the sum of entropy and order am I. I the Tablet, I the Calamus.
The red Sulphur, the soil, the clay - they mix and separate in praise of I.
I eat and I am eaten. I the sower, I the seed, I the giver, I the taker,
the vital and departing breath flow through I, the vehicle.
I the departing, I the returning, I the First and I the Last.
If I am not these, then what is I?
Two Sonnets
I
I marooned into the ministry
of the propagation of virtues and the prevention of vice,
uncocked myself, cursed the monarchy,
tongued a man and eyed the women twice.
Every man, tongued, doting dice
eye-groping like a corporateer
unwound their thighs hoping to entice
high-colonel cunting the bonely vizir.
I was there on business, not to sog or veer
I bent my knees and to the floor I fell
still. Jiving on the Holy O’s and the racketeer
I flicked my bic, bogged a fag, took my drag then loud as hell
I raved the mighty smut of divinations
to whit and woe away the nation’s inclinations.
II
Black holes spinning. Imagine two monsters-
the veteran gravitational wave hunter,
the other roughly 30- rippling the fabric holes.
Those numbers that rock you backwards caused a merger
like two soap bubbles in a bath they coalesce
turning around each other several tens of times--
it’s mind boggling at half the speed. The National Press
numbers look bald on paper. The Heart. All atoms
bump seven milliseconds and they are beautiful.
Summer downtime India Japan to Italy
redrawn to historic scale far from Earth. It
chinks the glorious equations as ever over any
obvious candidate regarded as the father over all.
These occasions dropped years back into orbit.
Latin Soulfege
re ri fa mi si so na
di fa ni ta fa ri di
fi na si mi na do re
na si so di ri fa na
fi na di re na na si
si ni do re ta do mi
ri sa ri fa fa di do
ti na na na fa re ri
na fa fa re
fi mi si ti
do di re fa na na na
Live at Happy Birthday Heather’s:
Ode to Sweet-Lip Bootlace Billy
Satch!
The ratatat tell me what I need to know
tell me
what I need to know--
just what I need
tell me!
slapdash silly like Bootlace Billy.
Oh but how she tell it so:
Sweet-Lip Billy blankly staring
so close she felt the warmth of the tenor horn
breathing closely to her ear
oh yes how she do
Bootlace Billy on the roux.
Billy brushes back her necklong oak-brown hair
so lonesome I could cry!
the way she do
tipping back her wineglass gently to her lips
blood-red by design.
I was the glass caressed helpless
in that moment hip
to the touch of Sweet-Lip Bootlace Billy.
Just treat me right mama
and I’ll be here night and day
Just treat me right mama
and I’ll be here night and day
But if you can’t do it mama
you’re gonna find I’m gone to stay
and Tanqueray Chloé sippin’ lightly
on her gin martini delicately--
glass in her left hand, cigarette in her right,
pack of lucky strikes in a bad blame hour.
It seemed a thrill, every now and then,
to see miss Tanqueray hold her glass
balanced on her knee just right
dipping her lime compulsively in and out
of her happy happy rin tin gin martini drink.
Still fixated on Danny “the tom-tom” Devito
swishing his brush flirtatiously on his snare,
she struck one more.
Can’t even sing my blues away
but I keep tryin’ everyday
Can’t even sing my blues away
but I keep tryin’ everyday
My throat has gone dry baby
Can’t think of one damn tune to play
Satchblow sing me to the bone
some horn of brother Gabe ragline
hop. I taste the reed I swim the sea melodic
that anarchy of tempered tones, watch
it cascade and fill the deprivation
in my being it is effortless.
Satchblow swing the pocket carnival gyrations
they soliloquize loose gems along
the beady lace of past midnight
a requiem for Tanqueray.
Satchblow play the man between two mirrors
hack no-peace-I’ll-find, poor Georgia
dream deadpan the way you tell it so,
Satchblow.
If I had a nickel
I’d put it towards that diamond ring
If I had a nickel
I’d put it towards that diamond ring
I ain’t got nothin’ mama
not one good goddamn thing
But then came in the man who calls himself Irish--
lank and tall and shrill like a
fatally wounded banshee trapped
in a broke victrola box oh God
he just saw me oh hey, hey man what’s good?
tells me I can’t believe you know Earl Hines!
Cool man. So I turned my head to fix
once more upon my Sweet-Lip Bootlace Billy.
Sometimes it feels so right mama
I just don’t know what to do
Sometimes it feels so right mama
I just don’t know what to do
But now it just don’t feel right mama
Can’t even get a hold of you
O Bootlace Billy but for the way you do
the eons would flutter reckless from the aural mist
unhinged aloud while hepcats dwarfed around you.
O Bootlace Billy but for the way you do
those pinpoint luck-lorn lashes would arrow through
uncharted ruminations to penetrate the bleak majestic.
O Bootlace Billy but for the way you do
the voyeurs vapid in lament would undo their seams
in the dark boudoirs of their flesh-clod minds
lost to the carnal slipstream that is their being.
O Bootlace Billy but for the way you do
the womenfolk would cast their fading silhouettes
upon the flawlessness of your taunting countenance,
that amourous festoon the envy of sextillion hosts angelic.
O Bootlace Billy but for the way you do
the sound notations would be devoured
by the celestial gyroscope of the bandstand
wherefrom the pendulumic melodies pretend
they do not notice you, pretend they’re not all yours
but most profoundly are, they seek your decadence.
O Bootlace Billy but for the way you see me through
I see you too.
Every time you look at me
to the heavens I will cry
Every time you look at me
to the heavens I will cry
But every time I look at you mama
you just turn your head and sigh
Seems all I do is drink and ramble
wonderin’ where you stayed last night
Seems all I do is drink and ramble
wonderin’ where you stayed last night
So I will sit here drinkin’
‘til I see that mornin’ light
But then it came, last call, the third encore,
the last smoke rings of Chloé Tanqueray,
the swift decline of tom-tom Danny,
Satchblow’s final frenzy to the masses,
the return from trance to temporal,
the doting sound of the siren rain.
I wonder if I’ll see the like of you
again sweet Bootlace Billy. But whether
through the sagging boughs of Brynmill Park,
at the Kardomah on a brisk Sunday,
or by the station waiting for the four,
you’ll find me singin’ slap-dash silly
my very own Blues for Billy.